dusty.

yeah, that would best describe my blog now.

SALVE! (which kinda means hi in italian) odd inhbitants of planet earth! (yeah, i need a new greeting too)

guess what? i am back from melacca already. i am finally free from the random golden retrievers chasing you around and pooping in your play area. well, technically it's their play area but they shouldve agreed to loan it to us for a few days. pooh.

well, overall, camp was fun. if there was shoud be a word for it, it would be shockalingam. :)despite sleeping in a crummy bed and getting wet while having to look for pieces of paper in the rain, all else was well. uncle dexter is one helluva speaker and his talk sessions were very -howdoyouputit- sensible. out of my 3 youth camps so far, this has been the one that made the most sense. the workshops were great and the one i joined was not what i expected at all. writing tight with eugene phua, non traaditional, non boring.

hahh! deborahlor shal get off the computer now. i dont expect you to expect any updates until next year because my dad is forcing me to wreck my brains reading a book. hoyeahh.
kaythanksbye.

phuahjiahoSINGH

since xinli drew a picture of phuahjiahoSINGH, i did too :) shes now drawing a camel. but anyway, here it is.

not necessary in human form, except for the cina looking richard.

the treestump is tammy :)

the camel is yours truly

the plant is supposed to be a celery stick, but its a plant which represents xinli :)

and the human boy is richard. :)

i am SO LAME

hai kawan semua :)

i have officially lost it. i FORGOT how to blog properly and im not sure if that is even possible. but heck, what is NOT possible with deborah lor eh? *heights are not included* there's nothing happening in my life right now. well, nothing blog worthy that is. all i do all day is wake up at either 10.30 or 11.30 in the morning because i am a pig and it's holiday season, eat, watch Royal Pains on tv and have a nap. after i get up from i nap, i sit infront of the tv again waiting for Jamie Oliver to come on just because i like his british accent. that is how i spend my day on a holiday. thank goodness im not missing school yet though. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? its already december. i only have 29 days left of 2009 to enjoy and ten possibly another 3 next year before school starts. i will OFFICIALLY be a form 3 student next year, and i will officially be a PMR candidate. boohooo.

oh and by the way, im getting braces next tuesday. frankly speaking, I CANT WAITT :D
i am going to be Xinli's partner in crime. imma get neon orange ones for the sake of it. do they have glow in the dark ones? :)

thats all for now. in about another 2 weeks, i will post again. if i remember.
BYE :D

its been a while hasn't it? i bet ALL of you missed me. well, i for sure did not miss any of you. why you ask? because i'm awesome. DUHH.
i wasn't kidding. I AM awesome.
but i am also lying :)

hello hello outside world. i didnt mean what i said in that paragraph up there. you probably dont cre anyway. but yeah, whateverrr. as usual, nothing much happened this week.,and the week before, and most probably the week after this. im not psychic, i just dont expect ANYTHING exciting. i mean like, what is there to look forward to? mother dear is leaving back for work VERY EARLY in the morning tomorrow so tonight will probably be the last time i see her until she comes back in 3 weeks time. boohoo, if you couldnt tell, i dont like tonight.

i had pork soup for dinner. but i didnt take pork soup. i just ate alot of lettuce in soup. i am an official vampire shield right now, and most probably a human shield too. the stench of garlic in my breath might not go away until tomorrow. yeah, its THAT awesome. :)

okay. I, shalll leave this place now. i shall not distribute any more of my negative energy. i dont think i can anyway but i shall go anyway. goodbye odd inhabitants of planet earth.

gossip girl stars, and high school flashbacks

can you believe that penn badgeley was that chubby kid in high school instead of the guy with visible sexy cheek bones on gossip girl now? i have nothing else to say about penn's highschool picture.

what you are about to see right after this series of letters stuck together will/might make you smile and say aww. here are the letters stuck together. OHMYGOODNESSHEWASSOOOOOHOOOOOTTTTT.



that, my friends, is chace crawford.
he was sooo hoooootttt :) he stil is :)
AHAH, im on a peanut butter high. sorry richard, youre the only one who hates peanut butter now :)

i dont feel like saying anything nice now, but for the sake of all my blog readers, HELLO.
nah, i was kidding. :)

as i type now, my left eye is swollen and it feels very sore. it all started with my self-cut fringe not obeying me and wont part from the left, resulting in about 105 sharp ends of hair poking my cornea. the best part was when i kept rubbing my eyes. wow, the feeling felt good, but i dont look that way. at least not for now, or ever. blahh.

for lunch this afternoon, daddy dearest forced me to put my vegetarian diet on a halt for 2 weeks because i am apparently malnourished. and so, i end up in a crowded wantan noodle shop. i ate chicken, and he shoved pork down my throat. not literally, but he was like "EAT THE CHAR SIEWWWWW. i'll take the other one" i put 'the' because he purposely ordered a seperate plate of meat. for about an hour and a half after that, something felt stuck in my throat. why an hour and a half only? well, i fell asleep after that so all was well.

OH OH OHHHH! i purchased 2 metres of cloth just now. black and purple :) my grandmother decided to donate me pretty blue cloth after that just because i bugged her to do so. perhaps she didnt like the sound of an annoying teen calling her 'popo' for goodness knows how many times in a day, she might have not liked the idea of being called a name that people usually call old people. but nevertheless, she is a wonderful womannn. my grandmother could hae been a fashion designer back in her time as she has sewn many pieces of beautiful clothing. if she had the chance to do fashion designing in the states where she never had the chance to go to even until today (oh yes, i sound mean), she would've had the money to have a good life. she would have enough money to buy good food and she would have enough money to stop her osteoperosis from happening. oh my dear grandmother, you are indeed the version of superwoman, before my mother. :')

okay, i shall go off now. taa' lovelies. although i dont mean it :)

a random list of things i would like to do this holiday.

1, boost my stamina. reeeechardddd?
2, take pictures :)
3, study form 1 things i did not manage to stuff into my head last year. *hinthint, maaatthhh*
4, have at least 2 more phuahjiahoSINGH sessions.
5, shop for a new dress and skinnies. i can buy a vest off my aunt, HOPEFULLY.
6,download THE SUMMER SET songs, even though they're old.
7, clean my pig sty.
8, MAKE a skirt.
9, attend girls camp.
10, finish gossipgirl season 2 and 3. whatever they have at least :)
11, look for the summer set's cd :)

FEARLESS.

FEARLESS;
is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again.

FEARLESS;
is living in spite of the things that scare you to death.

FEARLESS;
is letting go.

i want to be fearless. what about you?

i listened to my fearless cd last night after a long time of leaving it on the shelf. the message on the paper that was in the front made alot of sense to me. despite reading it for a few times before, the message only made sense to me now. i find Taylor Swift to be a strong and graceful girl, or lady. whichever you prefer.

call me tortoise.

i just realised that my life as a form two student has come to halt, 23 HOURS AGO. and guess what? i wasn't even in school.

it feels like just yesterday i was placed in a class that had the first letter of FAIL, as so my mother teases. but whatever, i survived.
it seemed like just yesterday i was sitting alone and suddenly this random chinese girl named pui ling, who soon became my friend instead of random-chinese-girl sat next to me.
it seemed like just yesterday i was placed in a window seat surrounded by people i only knew by name.
it seems like just yesterday i had gotten wonderful teachers to teach me 10 subjects for the rest of my form 2 days.
it seems like just yesterday i became close to this girl named Elina who has split personalities.
it seems like yesterday was the start of 2009.

screw nostalgia.

im sorry i let you down.
im sorry you have breakdowns because i let you down.
im sorry i let you feel like crap.
im sorry i let myself feel like crap next to you with your superwoman image
im sorry i was too darn arrogant
im sorry i failed
im sorry i never lived up to your expectations.
im sorry i wasted 14 years of you time giving you false hope

im trying my best now. im am just sorry.
but to you, sorry is but a word. right?